priscilla: (The quiet's not gentle in empty wells.)

[personal profile] priscilla 2011-03-15 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
I talked to him again.

I didn't go see him. I just talked to him.
priscilla: (I'm running out of time.)

[personal profile] priscilla 2011-03-15 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
I felt his energy near the headquarters, so I contacted him to tell him to stay away. It just. I don't know. Escalated.
priscilla: (When I come to terms with this.)

[personal profile] priscilla 2011-03-15 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
...he said he'd try to stay away from the headquarters in the future, if I visited him at least once a week. And we just--

It doesn't matter. It escalated, he doesn't... understand. What he's done to me.

And I miss him. Isn't that terrible?

...I didn't tell him that.
priscilla: (We'd be so less fragile)

[personal profile] priscilla 2011-03-15 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
I haven't agreed to anything.
priscilla: (I'm running out of time.)

[personal profile] priscilla 2011-03-15 08:07 am (UTC)(link)
That barrier couldn't have kept me out if I really wanted to pass. It would never be able to stand up to him.

The truth is, I didn't tell him yes or no. But I was going to say no. He just... stopped talking.

[...and then another sniffle.]

I was really starting to feel better. To feel lighter again. And now I just...
priscilla: (Almost brave.)

[personal profile] priscilla 2011-03-15 08:34 am (UTC)(link)
He said... that he pushes me because he believes in me. And that while there is a chance of my awakening, there's also a chance of my becoming strong enough to resist it. And... that he loves me... enough to bear my hatred to see my dream realized.

I...

I don't know what to do.
priscilla: (When I come to terms with this.)

[personal profile] priscilla 2011-03-15 09:29 am (UTC)(link)
....hm.

"Maybe I never loved you the way you wanted, but that doesn't mean I never loved you at all."

That's what he said. When I told him I don't believe him anymore.

I guess that's his way of showing it. I don't know. But I can't...

[...and now she's actually crying.]

I can't. I can't...
priscilla: (It's wearing her outsides thin.)

[personal profile] priscilla 2011-03-16 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
But I don't know what to do! Senji, I--

When he left, I thought--!

[...more crying.]
priscilla: (I guess I'm the sorriest of all.)

[personal profile] priscilla 2011-03-18 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
I thought he was done with me. I don't know why else someone would do that. And if he isn't, then I don't know what he wants from me, I already gave him everything he asked for and he still--!